Let’s just admit it. We’re not perfect, and we know it. But sometimes the not-perfect-ness gets really old. Your head knows one thing, but you keep doing something else. You’ve prayed about it, but it still keeps happening. You feel like a failure at this Christian life, and you’ve got the data to prove it.
As a young woman I felt like a failure for a long period of time. On the outside I didn’t look that bad. I wasn’t out at night drinking or hooking up with many different guys. As a new doctor I was helping people every day, and I was going to church. Nobody would have called me a failure as a Christian by looking at my outward behavior.
But on the inside I felt very different. There were thoughts I was wrestling with, ways I was responding to people, and things I was not doing that made me feel like a failure. I remember saying to myself, “I’m an adult now. I should be functioning better. There must be something terribly wrong with me, and nobody will explain to me what it is.”
I’ve recently heard from a number of you who feel like a failure in some way:
- The university student who feels she is never able to give her best to an assignment
- The diabetic who gained another twenty pounds even while trying to eat right
- The widow who feels guilty every time she feels strong sexual urges and masturbates
- The retiree who still struggles after decades of serious depression